Just For Today

Everyone is entitled to a bitch and moan day. That’s okay right? Well, today is mine. Hopefully, tomorrow won’t be the same. I keep seeing this quote online, “Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been strong for too long.” by Author Unknown. Today, I feel like I’ve been strong for too long. Before I go on, I have to say that I’m normally not what the kids call a “hater.” I actually take joy in the success of people around me. Often times, I’m helping others more than I help myself. Just for today, I can’t help but ask, why them and not me?

By them, I mean people I know who have been grimy. A dead-beat dad who’s chosen to be estranged from my children. Lying, cheating ex-boyfriends. Shady family members who have stolen from me. How do their dreams come true before mine? I’m the parent who chose to stay and raise my children. I was the ever faithful partner in all of my relationships. Family, that’s sacred to me. I would never intentionally hurt my own flesh and blood.

So, I’m left wondering how the dead-beat dad has a lovely wife, other children, and a home in Florida. With a pool no less. An ex-fiancée finally purchasing a home. This, after he messed up our plans. Two weeks from closing on a home we were supposed to purchase, he’s caught being unfaithful. Yet I get turned down for a home loan on a stupid technicality. It makes no sense to me. Just for today…

I realize that there are people worse off.. Given the recent tragedies in the world, I should be thanking my lucky stars. Normally, I do. It may not seem like it, but I do believe in the law of Karma. I have a firm grasp of the “grass is not always greener” notion. Yet, here I am whining and complaining. Luckily, it’s just for today.

Bookaversary

April 22, 2010. That’s the date my first novel was released! It’s almost that time again. My baby will be celebrating its first birthday. Join me in celebrating this milestone. Over at my publisher’s facebook page, we’re holding a contest. Here is a snippet from the publisher’s post:

“In honor of our one year bookaversary, the day our debut titles were released. We will be holding a contest throughout the month of April. Our actual bookaversary is April 22. Celebrate with us!

(Click here for Touche Publishing’s Facebook Page)

Refer a Friend Contest

The contest will be set up with a points system in place. Be the first contestant to accumulate 100 points and win! By getting your friends to participate on Touche Publishing’s “fan” page, through various activities, you can be the winner of an Electronic Book Reader.”

(Click here for the full post)

A big thanks to everyone who has followed my journey this past year. You have made it such a rewarding experience for me. I continue to learn from each one of you. You only make me better, so don’t go anywhere

Delusional Doom Blogfest

I am happy to announce that I am participating in another cool Blogfest! Here are a few details:

BEHOLD… THE DELUSIONAL DOOM BLOGFEST!
When: The Ides of March (March 15) obviously
Where: Your blog and mine
WHAT: SOMEONE WILL DIE!

Let me e’splain…
You can do ANY (or all) of the following:

Predict your own death

Predict someone ELSES death

Write your own obituary

Write someone ELSES obituary

Plot a murder of someone sorely asking for it, step by step

For full details (click here)

For my contribution, I will plot a death :)

I suppose I should be thanking you, since you were responsible for giving me life. Yet, here I am plotting your demise. How did we arrive here? Where did we go wrong? You were supposed to be first in my heart from the very beginning. I thought you'd always be there to comfort me. To reassure me when times got rough. Wasn't it your job to accept being placed on a pedestal? Being put before all others.

Instead, you abandoned me. Left me wondering why I wasn't good enough for you to stay. You went off, and spread your wings. You found others to grace with your presence. You carried on, producing many others like me. In that case, why not just stay? I know for sure, that I accepted you with faults and all. Worked so hard to forgive you when you hurt me. But still, you left repeatedly. You would return periodically. Apparently to torture me. Remind me of your greatness. Only to bolt the minute things got complicated. What did I ever do to you?

You've made it painfully clear that you have no regard for my existence. So why should I care anything about yours? I've come to resent everything you stand for. Most days I'm thoroughly annoyed that you even exist. For that, I must rid the world of you. Not only for myself, but for the others you helped to destroy. I'll use your modus operandi against you. I'm going to lull you into a false sense of security and strike when you're unaware. With the same hands I use, to wipe away the tears you've caused; I'm going to rip your heart out. You will learn what it feels like, for someone else to hold your heart in their hands. I will watch with baited breath, as it beats for the last time.

Farewell, love. I will not mourn you for long. For I know that I have the power to resurrect you at anytime. It's just a matter of wanting to, or not.

Obituary

Rest in Peace

Love, former bane to man's existence, has died this 15th day of March 2011.

It was said to have conquered all, but in the end, could not even save itself.

Love will be remembered fondly, as it did find its way into many hearts.

Love is survived by those who believed in it, and those who it eluded.

Numerous memorial services will be held worldwide for those having had faith in Love.

Celebrations for those slighted by Love will commence immediately.

Thank You For Being a Friend

Thank You For Being a Friend

Posted: March 12, 2011 by May Torres in Mentions, Random, Writing
Tags: friendship, women's history month

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In 1981 Congress passed a resolution recognizing Women’s History Week. In 1987 they expanded the focus to a whole month. March has been set aside as this month in the United Kingdom and in the United States. So in keeping with this spirit of celebration, I’d like to talk about women I admire. For the next month, I will highlight a few of these women each week. Some I know personally, and some are people I wish I knew.

My next selection for women I admire, is someone I know personally. (Click here for previous post)

My partner in crime, R.C. Berry. I have only known her about three years, but it feels like I’ve known her so much longer. I mean that in a good way We have shared a life-time of experiences in such a short time span. We met and traveled together almost immediately. Our first stop, Miami’s South Beach. It was a short weekend trip but we packed in a lot of fun and discovered the start to a great friendship.

Ras and May

Since then we have traveled several more times, visited each others respective home towns, and embarked on a new journey; writing. When I met her she was an awesome event planner. I even attended her kick-ass New Year’s Eve masquerade party. It was well-planned and very successful. I had never been to an event like it. However, not too long after we met, the economy tanked. She had to put her business on hold. It was right after that, that we started writing our first books. We published them under the new publishing company we started, and haven’t looked back.

This is all well and good, but I want to tell you why I admire her. The first reason is because she has the most infectious smile. It really is, that simple. She has a Betty Rubble giggle that makes me chuckle. When we met, I was going through a terrible heartbreak. Something about her witty and sunny disposition made me feel better. She’s hilarious and if you read one of my previous posts, you’ll know that I really love funny people. A good sense of humor is such a wonderful trait to have. And boy does she have it.

I’ve never had a more generous friend. If there’s something she thinks you should have, she gives it. That includes her affection and love. There is never a time, when I have to question her feelings. She readily gives of herself, and doesn’t ask for anything in return. The very first year I met her, I fell on hard times and found myself without money to buy my children Christmas gifts. Just from me mentioning my dilemma, she took action. She sent money to my PayPal account and didn’t say a word. When I saw the email advising me that she had sent me money, I wept. The gesture was so selfless because I knew she was also going through financial hardship. She just wanted my children to have Christmas.

From that point on, I knew I had finally found a person who I could trust. Someone I could trust to have my best interest at heart. Trust that I could depend on her to be there in my time of need. No matter what the need. Trust her with my thoughts and feelings. Knowing that I could confide in her without her passing judgment. I can safely say, I know she’ll always be there. With deep love and gratitude for taking special care of our friendship, I say, thank you for being a friend.

Erotica/Comedy Short Story Contest

I wanted to share some information about a contest that's running from March 1-15. Writer, L.M. Stull, who appears to be addicted to hosting short story contests, is at it again. The mission: Erotica/Comedy. I just could not pass it up. Both genres capture my full attention. As a matter of fact, I find myself mostly attracted to funny people ;) (If that applies to you, kindly leave your number here ________ ) :D

This link Erotica/Comedy Short Story Contest will take you straight to the contest details if you're interested in entering. While you're there, check out all the other cool stuff on the site. (Then subscribe :) ,to join the ranks of the cool kids )

If you happen to find yourself curious about my submission, you can check it out here. You will need a password so just contact me and I'll supply you with it. You can reach me at:

Maytorres72@gmail.com or facebook.com/May.torresNY

Don't kill me, it was my first time writing in the Erotica genre. Be kind :D

Thank You, Alanis Morissette

In 1981 Congress passed a resolution recognizing Women's History Week. In 1987 they expanded the focus to a whole month. March has been set aside as this month in the United Kingdom and in the United States. So in keeping with this spirit of celebration, I'd like to talk about women I admire. For the next month, I will highlight a few of these women each week. Some I know personally, and some are people I wish I knew.

The first will come as no surprise to anyone who talks to me or reads anything about me :)

Alanis Morissette

My Goddess

I love the lyrics to every single song she writes and sings. I do mean every single song. That is why I adore her. She has a very distinctive voice. There's not many artists out there that I can say, I love every single song on their album. How can I not love a woman who passionately sings: "Did you forget about me, Mr. Duplicity? I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner. It was a slap in the face, how quickly I was replaced and are you thinking of me when you fuck her?"

I admire her strength in putting her vulnerability on display. I feel like I've grown as I followed her musical journey. For every album she made, there were songs that covered what I was going through at that exact point in time.

She started out with angst-filled lyrics early on. No doubt chronicling her tumultuous life at that given time. When she released her album Jagged Little Pill, I was reeling from my very first break-up. And it was UGLY. So I was right there with her, feeling every word she belted out.

As she matured, a few albums later, she began taking responsibility for her actions. She stopped making excuses and stopped blaming others for what happened to her. She no longer played victim. I learned to do the same. And it was freeing. I forgave people and began to heal.

Alanis Morissette's words have brought me great comfort. She has fought her way through heartbreak and is now happily married with a new baby. That gives me an ounce of hope, that I will one day find a healthy relationship. I'm sure there's somebody I can click with. Just haven't met them yet :)

Through it all, she remained a beam of light, sharing her wisdom with her fans. She may not have the recognition that a Beyonce or Britney Spears has, but she has a millions of die-hard fans around the globe. We don't care that her music doesn't get radio play, we'll support and follow her no matter what. Her message is one I admire. I feel deep gratitude that she has allowed us in, on her life's journey. Thank You, Alanis Morissette!

My girl crush :-)