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Saturday, May 15, 2010

What Makes It So Easy To Walk Away From Children These Days?

Being a single parent with no help from a co-parent, has got to be one of the loneliest things on this planet. No one enters into parenthood believing that they will, solely, be responsible for raising a child. Obviously, I'm not talking about those that opt to have a child "unconventionally" I'm talking about two people who were in a loving relationship, or at the very least, liked each other. I will never understand a parent being absent from their child's life. I don't want to sound judgmental, but it truly is something I can not comprehend. To totally cut your child out of your life, seems so heartless. I'm a single mother of two teenagers and its so difficult for me to deal with the fact that their father does not bother with them. It's such a lonely feeling, when you feel like you have nothing left to give, and there's no comfort from the other parent. My mother has supported me and been there the whole time. It's just not the same, at least to me it's not. It's not her job to be co-parenting with me. She's supposed to be enjoying her grandchildren and spoiling them rotten, then sending them back home to me. Instead she's there, worrying, every step of the way with me. I'm struggling to raise these beautiful children, one of them being a son. How can I give him what he should be getting from his father? It makes me so upset. I never married, but came very close. The last man I was with, for five years, promised that he would always have my son's back. Where is he now? When my relationship ended with him, so did the one he had with my son. He's now playing house with another woman and her children. And I was engaged to him! What makes it so easy to walk away from children these days?

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Waking Up Mad at Someone Else

Have you ever woken up just so mad at someone? They haven't really done anything to you lately but, you're just mad as hell at them. I hate losing the power for that brief moment, when I succumb to the anger. Just when I think I'm over something, it sneaks back up, unexpectedly. Then, I feel powerless because I allowed them to have that power over me. Ugh! There's one thing I hate, which I suppose most people do, as well. It's being lied to. I hate that individuals underestimate my intelligence. At first, when I know someone is spinning a tall tale, I humor them. That's probably my biggest mistake. In an attempt not to make them feel uncomfortable, I say nothing. I suppose I could use past tense here. (There's no way I'm going back to that practice) For years, I had what I thought was a close friend, tell lie after lie. I think we both knew that he was the biggest bullshitter known to man. Yet, I continued a friendship with him. Because of my own doing, I wake up with regret. Regret, for wasting so many years on a friendship founded on a pack of lies. I enabled this person's behavior and now I have nerve to be upset about it. I think that simple fact makes me more angry than anything. I hate that I allowed myself to be closed off to better friendships and opportunities, on account of keeping this lying sack of shit in my life. My regret turns to anger, and in turn, has me waking up mad at someone else :(

Enchanted Island Book Trailer

This video was put together using the book's back cover blurb.